Dreams, Dreams

It's 2. It isn't cool since nothing's new. Facebook feed is just the same. Tweets on my feed are trashy, I think (I have to un-follow a bunch of people; oh why did I follow those celebs?). I've nearly watched all the videos of this gag show. And now, I feel like updating my blog.

 Last time, which feels like a long time ago since I don't remember the exact date, Miss Yo asked us, "What are you enjoying to do?" and she tried relating that to a profession that can suit us in the future. One said that she enjoys reviewing. HOW? How can you enjoy stressing yourself out? HAHA. Others, on the other hand, face confusion. One doesn't know which should he prioritize: being a businessman, scientist, or an artist (I think since I saw his blog couple of minutes ago). Others, on the other hand, have definite goals in their existence. One said he would want to be a basketball player. Sosyal, isn't? For the rest, I don't remember since I'm so stressed these past few days.

Personally, as what I shared with the class, I enjoy doing some things, but after some time, I get messed up and don't show interest in finishing them. Well, this doesn't apply to everything that I do. But what do I really want to be in the future? What is the purpose of my existence? As what I've seen couple of weeks ago, you shouldn't be remarked or remember because of your image but of your message. What do I want to send people? What do I want to tell them? This feels different; I am thinking of something futuristic.

I have established, or had, perhaps, myself as a teacher. But, some say that I shouldn't take it because it is not-so-profitable. But am I after money? Let's face it: money is important. It's hard to live without that. But as I said, am I after it? One way or another, yes. But I am also after the message that I am going to instill to those people that I will inspire. [Why do I claim that I'll inspire people? HAHA] I would want to be a teacher partly because of money, but most of all, it's my passion. I don't see myself to be anybody but a person who is inside a four-sided room with tables, chairs, boards, television sets, and lockers. Sounds so MIT-ish right? Why not? I would love to serve my alma mater. I want to experience the perks of being a teacher: staying up late because of preparing for my classes and going to school like a zombie who hasn't gotten any definite sleep, feel the appreciation of my students in different ways, and all. Of course, I want to share my little knowledge, which I hope I possess. Also, I want to know the different types of persons to their deepest and sincerest sense.

If I'll not be a teacher, I would want to be an actor / host / performer(?). In acting, I would doubt myself because I never cried in a scene. Maybe because I'm doing it alone and no one's with me to savor the moment? HAHA. But, yeah, when you're in doubt, just pout. You've just learned another nugget of wisdom from my blog. HAHA. As a host, I think I'm seasoned in the bottom-most aspect of it, and progressing, since I always host events in the school or speak in front of a nearly-large crowd. But I still have to learn tons of things. On the other hand, can I be a performer? I sing, but I think high notes get flat. I dance, but am I graceful and "attracting" enough? Can I play the instrument? For this matter, I think practice is all you need, plus passion and perseverance. The 3Ps: PRACTICE, PASSION, PERSEVERANCE. I used to know playing lyres, and now at school, I study playing the piano, and I was successful with my first one. I don't have a special talent like eating fire, performing magic tricks, or balancing myself on a thin wire. So how? But things are odd. I imagine myself hosting numerous shows and being a coach in "The Voice" alongside big names like Adam Levine, Gwen Stefani, Shakira, Blake Shelton, et al. It's weird, right? Is my obsession with this show too much that I imagine myself with them and training artists (with myself that I can't even train)?

Anyway, it's 3 AM. Less than 30 minutes for this entry is fair. Have a good mor-night sleep, blog readers and raiders. Too many to do still later: Science Long Exam!!!